Brad's Blog

2010-05-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

there are too many thing happen to me
indeed, all quite sad to me..
not one but two times,.
felt like being dumped or what,
i'm not hate or dislike it,.
but maybe it's all fate,.
even though i had tried my best to fight for it
in the end, still a let down to me,.
if i had enough courage to face it,
then i wont be like this now..
just because of this, i had made myself really terrible,.
similar feeling with someone stabbing you..
pierce you or even destroy you.
maybe just a bit misunderstanding between us,
now become really awkward,.
dont know what happen in future,.
but i had to overcome with it,.
no matter what, i cant angry nor hate..
i just had to bring my courage to face it,.
because i already fell for you,.
better word to say, i like you,.

2010-05-12T17:59:00.005+08:00

Wednesday, May 12
since today i have no class,
stay at home and rot,.
but going out with my friend,
meeting around 1p.m + and walk towards west mall..
well, today weather really terrible,.
kept sweating plus i wore black shirt
really cant tahan about it..

to one of my friend.
11 May yesterday, i don't what had happened to you
but you told me that you can't smile,.
i bet something made you upset,.
sorry as i can't comfort and stay beside you.
cheer up ok, if you wanna share with me then i will listen to you,.
be happy--

-to lonely person-
i hope you can find someone who understand you and your happiness too
although at your surrounding, there is someone who care about you
but you didn't notice it since that person always stand further..
he just concern about you, when he saw you alone,.
when you are sad or cry, he will try to cheer you up,.
so you are kind of affect his mood,.
he wont back down,
and he will continue try to talk to you by chance, although he can't always stay beside you
nor protect you.
but your smile will always give him a bright chance to prove to you
he also want to know how you felt about it
so try to use your feeling and grab it.
he won't run away, since he might know that you need him.
so why not try to feel about it, not by looking..
hope you can understand him.

2010-05-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

today 11/5,. Tuesday i mean,.
nothing particular, but today quite tiring.
first lesson was EDPR, from 8 to 12 p.m
nothing particular happen, but when i went into the class the teacher announced that i had 3 times consecutive of being late,.
what an honor to say,. haha
today most likely only doing soldering,.
totally suck at practical but overall quite fun also,.

after that i got 3 hours break, as usual went back home first,.
need to bring my shoes bag and laptop,.
well usually for my next lesson was elective, DAVE module,.
and last week our teacher announced that we need to bring laptop cause we have quiz on mel..
so i brought along with my shoes bag.
but damn unlucky, during our elective lesson, teacher told us that the MEL got some problem, no idea what is the problem, but she said we can conduct the quiz,.
so totally crap, like bring laptop for nothing,.
not quite truth since at class, I was doing MOL for my EM3,.

as for my CCA tchoukball,.
indeed today thank to the rain and made us do PT, physical training.
damn kenny, as our coach,.
he seems like to enjoy torturing us,.
cant help, since it was raining and our usual court was outdoor not indoor,.
indeed quite tiring,.
reach home around 10.30 p.m,.
then watch Korean show,.

2010-04-24T09:51:00.000+08:00

23 April,.
another new semester had started,.
a bit relieved since my new class had someone i known, either from first or second semester,.
like hell, every Monday really boring to the max,.
since all the day from 8 a.m to 5 p.m lecture-lecture and lecture..
there are some new modules, but hell you, APPG..
at first i really don't know how to do, all my friends could finish their lab 1 without any difficulty, as for me not even understand and how to make it..
really suck at programming,.
what push me, what button me,. I even couldn't create a box out and also a lot of thing, i think really need to practice for this module already,.
since i haven't bought APPG book yet, as out of stock..

for some reason, I'm getting quite screw up,.
as yesterday around our break, went to canteen 2 for my lunch.
at there i help my friend buy and same goes to my friend,.
we went to the stall and order the food
i really freak plus old, both meals cost 5 dollars, but i don't have any change so i just gave them 50 dollars note, but for some reason i forgot to take the changes and walk away,
like went to sit around 5 minutes then I just realize i haven't retrieve any change, so i went to the stall and said i haven't got the changes,.
but they said never receive any 50 dollars notes,. they said i gave them 10 dollars not 50..
can't argue with them since i don't have any proof,.
but i show them my wallet, only have 2 dollar and 50 dollar notes,.
then just where was my 5 dollars note, since they said i pay 10 dollars note for my meals,. they kept saying never receive 50 dollars note,.
pathetic !! freak me !!
why always so careless..
I'm not acting cool or what,. losing 50 dollars just for 1 ---------, totally upset,.
i thought they would return me the money, but hell no.. they even said not even receive any 50 dollars note , quite pathethic.. hopeless me,. can't even argue and retrieve back,. angry ttm !

2010-03-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

time table out,
as my friend told me and ask me what is my class?
i quickly check and found out that i was at P2B6..
B6 again, haiz..
not so happy, since somebody not there, kidding2xz..
well, some people that i dislike same class as me, found it quite depressed.
but still have some happy thing,.
got 2 friends from my last last friends same class as me,.
quite good,. haha.
nvm, good point as have new friends,.
bad one is, I'm not quite good at making a new friends,. :)

2010-03-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

15 march, when to my friend house, hedy,
he stays at hougang, but i dont know his condo name,. haha
i reach there around 2, then we went to have our lunch at kopitiam, near the hougang mall there.
after that we went to hougang mall first,
he said he wanna went to popular and bought some books.
and also we went to sport shop and bought table tennis balls,
reach his house around 3,
i saw his bro, his bro girlfriend and his sister.
he also same condition as me, only live by ourselves,.
then he took out PS2 and we played winning games, ( soccer ).
we play around 1 hour plus, then prepare to go down and have some real sport.
we play table tennis, as we just bought a new ball,
i really quite enjoy this sport cause i had already played for 2 years plus,.
so a bit skillful,. :)
we play around 1 hour, it was quite fun, i really enjoyed it..
but my hand damn pain, cause swing too much,. :)
there was something quite tiring was going back,
cause from hougang mrt to lakeside mrt, around 1 hour route, really tiring since i just finished my sport,.
but quite fun, and thx to him,. hope we can play again soon.

2010-03-10T20:08:00.001+08:00

In this dream, a girl I have never seen before sat right next to me. For some unknown reason, I like this girl very much, and she kinds of likes me too. However, when the dream is about to end, that girls just vanished into the sky. And I would find myself crying, as I wake from the dream.

2010-03-08T14:38:00.001+08:00

7 march
going JP with my family, ate lunch together
then went to OCBC bank to pay some bills and deposit money ($).
then around afternoon i went out with my friend,
we went to marina square, cause he said wanna play billiards.
after that we went to shop.
and we ate MC donalds as for our dinner.
we finished at 7, then since we rarely went home so early,
usually we went home around 10 plus or 11.
then we went to Explanade and sat at the so called concert area,.
listening to the music from some unknown bands and rockers..
quite noisy but i enjoyed and really hyper.
after that we planned to walk to flyer, since i haven't went there yet.
from explanade to flyer, or call marina leisure park, if i'm not wrong.
need to walk around 10 - 15 minutes.
since it was at night time, so we could feel the wind blow plus the cold air.

at first i thought the flyer was surrounded by the huge grassland.
but i was wrong, the flyer was built and surrounded with a building,
look like a stadium but its smaller compare to a real stadium.
at there got a lot of cafe and restaurants.
we explored that area around half and hour,
but i like the view man, cause it was located near the sea and
surrounded with colourful light, dazzling plus radiant, really amazed.
really was romantic place for those couple who want to sit and enjoy their lovely time at there,. :)
after we finished exploring then walked back to where we came from
reaching marina square around 9 plus,
but really tiring plus my leg damn pain. :(
some more nothing to do already then we walk to the MRT and went back home,.

2010-03-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

Fear, an emotion aroused by impending danger, upset,..
Pain, physical suffering due to injury or illness,.
both emotion cause a man to lose their heart's beating and soul.

The biggest weapon that causes a man to fell is feeling.
not by hurting to your body, just a few words can totally shattered your feeling.
It's will take a period of time to heal your wound.
but this feeling won't be vanished so easily.
all your mind will keep thinking why, why and why.
The more you think, the deeper its hurts, and the shallow the wound,
and it will remain forever.

until the day you revived,
bringing up your courage,
and be brave to face it.
No matter how hard the wall,
one day it still will collapse.

but I'm still unable to forgive myself,
you can't forget something so easily which make your heart beating.
hiding, maybe a perfect plan from now,
but i will keep watching you,
watching over you in secret
waiting,
and protecting.
day by day,
This feeling will either grow or vanish from my heart.
Until the day, i understand this meaning,
you will be the first to know my true feeling.

2010-03-02T13:18:00.000+08:00

These few days, i had thought a lot of things.
No matter what i did to her, nothing will change.
our conversation become short
the time we spent become lesser
and both of us seem busy during holiday

I was once sensitive and fragile
with an answer of NO
everything my hope and chance were vanished
consider myself unlucky
sometime i was very selfish
never consider her feeling and spout something nonsense out,
leading both of us felt upset.
Feeling of jealousy was killing me
perhaps she didn't have this kind of feeling.
and i knew that she won't, cause i long ago know her feeling already.
time flows really fast, i had this kind of feeling for 3 months
still nothing change
maybe, this nothing change mean good thing to me
there a big obstacle about this matter,
she already belong to the other.

These few days,
our distance become further and further
i think this kind of feeling will vanish really soon.
no matter how strong and stubborn my heart,
one day it's still will collapse.
When protection become belief,
tears will even turn sweet.

2010-02-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

25 feb
after wake up, i felt a little bit dizzy
i thought maybe i slept too long already.
then around afternoon, i just found out that im sick.
i took out my thermometer and measured it.
really lucky, 37.8 c.
dont know what happen to me, but indeed lucky, im sick.
felt really tired and went to rest.
sleep around 2 hours plus then wake up,
but more worse, my head kept spinning and it's heavy,
my body kept sweating and some more sneezing.
jia lat, alone at home nobody can take care of me.
need to take care by myself already.
usually i lived with my sisters,
but my sisters went back cause they were having holiday
and left me alone here, at singapore.
then i all the day ate cup noodles.
poor me, :(

2010-02-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

20 feb
that time was the first time she ate together with me,
usually i ate alone, she just sat in beside me and saw me eating.
but today special, cause usually she on week days, monday to thursday she need to go back to eat her dinner.
and god really help me,
cause 20 feb is on saturday, so her mom usually never cook on weekends.
so she need to eat outside,
then Im the lucky guy, can eat lunch with her some more
then we went to swensen.
after that i sent her backkkkk..
i really enjoy it. thx for giving me this chance. :)

2010-02-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

19 feb - EG2 paper
20 feb - AEL paper
24 feb - DEL paper and so called last paper..
after that holiday START.. wkakakaka..
Guys good luck for the exams..
and tomorrow last paper, don't think it will quiet easy manxz..
so study hard.. :)
cause i also need to revise, so you all also NEED,, haha

before the DEL paper, i think on Monday..
i think my butt like being glue with the chair, all day just sitting on the chair and practicing revisions..
from 1 pm start doing, doing, doing, doing, doing,. until around 6 like that
then went to rest, went to bath and bought my dinner..
ate really fast, then continue to study around 7 to 10+..
i like a robot like that, kept continuing study, unstoppable..
bo bian, in order to get a good results,
so need to study hard.
i like spent around 10 hours like to study DEL,
but after i did all the revisions, total got 5 papers,
there are still some questions that i left blank,
cause i don't know how to do so left it.
i think this semester, all the lecture class taught us really ( can understand 50-50 ), so must do revision then i could understand and applied the formula on the questions.

today, Tuesday, got a DEL clinic, a lesson for us.
so i went there, cause i did my revisions already but some questions i couldn't understand so need to seek for the teacher help..
i think total got 7 or 8 questions like that.
but after hearing, our teacher explain the answer, like DAMN easy,
she just speaks a few words and writes something on my paper, then can get the answer already, for her was easy, but for me, HARD..
some i really don't understand so i kept asking her again and again,
and finally i catch her meaning and understand already..
im really glad that i come today,
if not then at home will like a stone,
and wait for the god to give me the answer, by dropping from the sky.,.
so really thx a lot to teacher..
all the best for tomorrow paper guys,.
don't emo or sad, cause the paper is hard,
relax a bit like me, smile and cheer up k..
so you can do it manxz..

2010-02-21T00:16:00.001+08:00

19 february
EG2 paper, not so difficult, but too many careless mistakes.. :(
sian, cant get AD ler, haha..
but at least can get an A, better than get B..
after exam, around 11 a.m, me, jakcson, guo wei and the others plan to study AEL for tomorrow test.
we went to our space to study, but i at there like nothing to study too.
cause i have revised AEL for many times alr,.
so can say that im very confident for this paper.. :D
we finish study around 3 plus, then my friend ask me to go out town,.
then i like,.. erm,,. felt happy..
then i took the same bus with she, we went to bishan..
but that time really damn happy, cause we like keeping argue about something,.
one is about her spectacles and another one is about the bubble tea..
haiz, she arh, really stubborn arh,,
first is about the her specs, cause i stole her spec..
usually she wears contact lens, but dont know why she wears spec..
she said her eyes 'Zhong' haha,
yup, i saw it and agree about it.
then, i kept her spec, she kept trying and trying to steal it back..
she will use any kind of methods,.
no matter what she tried, she still cant success,.
but, i ownself gave up, so i surrender to her, give her back. :)
its quiet fun to be like this with her..

for second one is about money,
cause i said i thirsty and i said i wanna buy a drink
so we went to the bubble tea shop, near her house their..
she drinks milk shake and i drink green apple milk shake..
then i said i pay for her, but i said i treat her.
no matter what i said, she die die also dont want me to play for her..
walking with her also very scared, must have a distance with her,
maybe she like a monster or what, haha..
but, at last she gave up, cause she lose to me alr, and tired bah..
so yup, i think really enjoy it very much..
really hope can be like this with her every times and days..

To felicia

2010-02-13T05:47:00.000+08:00

sorry, until now i only thought about myself never thought about you..
you have your difficulties but i still cant understand you..
cause when i talk to you, i hope you can happy chat with me,
and don't do other think can?
just enjoy talk to me..
i knew you very hard, cause your father will angry because of it..
exams is coming soon,
if you still haven prepared for it,
your father will confirm angry about you, or even can scold you..
and like that your grade may fell too...
then you just blame me ok.
cause im the one making you become like that.
today is the last day at school,
and i hope can spend with you until i left singapore.
but i think cant.
cause we have an argument just now.
Im really sorry for your old man and you..
after you text me, i read ler, i felt sad.
then after that i cant sleep alr
cause i 4.30 need to wake up, and need to prepare something also.
so yup, and this time not your fault, is entirely my fault..
so blame me ok!
i really upset after read your msg..
i think i won't be happy after today.
even going back, meet my friend, enjoy CNY with my family,
i also wont be happy.. because i did something that made you sad.
i dont know you got read my blog or not.
really sorry and this time really my fault for not understanding your difficulties........... :(

Compro quiz

2010-02-12T09:20:00.000+08:00

Compro quiz, i score quite good at MCQ, and second part,
i think quite ok too..
and thx to one girl...
because of her, i can score quite good on my MCQ.
so yup thx to her, :)
today, something special,.
jx talk to me first, i stunned..
maybe that girl treat her good what, or what..
even chu han aslo ask me, said jx change alot..
like suddenly start talking with them..

dont know why, during the compro test,.
i proud of it..
cause after i finish my part 2,.
i shout it out and said i had done..
and a lot of people copied mine.. haha..
so yup, maybe they proud of my answer or what..

and to this baka girl..
dont sad ok cause of your MCQ result,.
at least, you did your best alr, and second part you also did quite ok..
and sorry for not helping you, :(
so don't sad ok, you just unlucky or what..
cheer up!! don't sad cause i also will sad,. :(

lonely

2010-02-09T23:41:00.001+08:00

today, i really felt alone.
after class ended at 5 pm, as usual i wait for them.
my next door class friend, tchouk-ball friend..
then i wait outside for them around 30 minutes,.
because i never ask them or even said hi to them,
just being alone, stand outside, kept daydreaming.. :)
nvm, i really being alone long time ago alr..
so somehow get used to it..
after they finished, we walked to the canteen 2..
and some more i ask them wanna eat or not..
none of them reply me, only hansen..
but he said he full alr..
i dont know why..
they went to buy drink never ask me..
buy food also never asked me..
i really dont know why..
around 45 minutes like that, none of them talk to me..
like can't even communicate with them,.
sitting alone and keep having day dreaming..

after all, after that incident, i realized something
maybe they even not care for me at all..
to them i like stranger.. :(

nice song!!

2010-02-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

today test

2010-02-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

really regret now..
why i have to take this kind of elective course..
up until now, more than 4 months, totally dont understand at all..
about today test.. haiz
first time in my life, during the exam never even write a single answer..
i think most likely maximum score i can get is only 5 mark out of 40..
really hopeless..
even i got time to study and revise,,
but i still can't understand at all..
the weight of this test is 15%..
never mind it ends already so gave up bah..
cause i had done my final project, the weight is 50%..
so hopefully can pass.
really regret, cause i didn't choose this module..
and who the hell so good and help me choose this stupid module..
but never mind, today is the LAST day of my stupid elective class..
so hopefully, don't ever show up in front of me thx..

a weird guy

2010-02-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

today, that guy really ....
need to hit him.. haiz..

after finished my lunch at the MC donald, my friend plan to walk back to NP through back door.
at the front line got 2 girls, mid got 3 and,
last, i mean behind have 2 'so called couple'.

but, i really hate that weird person..
keep following me and foo..
i just wanted to have a more free time with her..
however, that weirdo kept following me..
he really dont know that i want to be alone with her,
or he just act blur.. really piss me off..
then i really dont care..

but he did it one more time..
after we end our lesson..
she need to meet her sister so i accompany him, and also 2 of my friends,
included that weirdo..
one of my friend knew me well, so he kept a distance with me,.
but that weirdo, haiz..
when i was walking with her, he kept trying to sneak to the middle and want to have a conversation with her..
then i felt confuse..
like he suddenly bump in for???
really, he need to get beaten by me..
one day,, you better be careful weirdo...

today i'm sad

2010-02-02T15:30:00.000+08:00

if both of them are fated to be an item,
then no matter what methods i used, i wont be win against it..

like today,. i was late to school..
but i saw her and HIM..
always together, went to school, lunch, studied together, even went back..
haiz..
but i endure it, cause she asked me.

but today, i really couldn't endure it..
cause i saw them like a couple, same colour of shirt and pants..
i downright sad,
no appetite to eat too..
so... ya.. maybe today i really lost to him.. :(

31 january - afternoon and evening

2010-01-31T22:30:00.004+08:00

after we had left from east coast area,.
we plan to go out and have fun..
so we had chosen our next location at town, orchard..
kai xiang and lester plan to buy a new clothes for chinese new year..
well, most likely all of us need to buy.. :)
our first place was far east plaza..
but first, we need to fill our stomach.. so we ate at KFC..
then continue to shop at far east plaza.
But first, there got one damn extra person at our group..
dont know why and what, but his outfit damn 'ZAI'
cause he wore sport clothes..
so really damn extra.. we really felt paiseh..
walked with him..

lester wanted to buy 'praise' shirt which he fond of it..
so we went and looked for the shop,.
unfortunately, the shop was closed,
lester face filled with disappoinment.. :(
so at there, we couldnt buy a single thing at all..

so next location was Ions..
And a lot of people was looking at us,
well not me, to THAT person, That extra person!!..

so we went to Ions and explored any kind of shop..
like Zara, Uniqlo, levi's, G-shawn, fredperry, etc..
well, at uniqlo, kai xiang and lester, finally wanted to buy a pair of jeans..
but first, they need to try,.. well, to see, was it fit them or not?
lester and kai xiang sized both wore same sized. 31.. :)
lester also bought a t-shirt at zara shop..
but i think it was same colour as mine.. :(

then lastly, we went to cathay ciniplex..
at there kai xiang and lester, each one bought a 'praise' t-shirt..
and fianlly, i also bought a shoes for chinese new year..
i bought a blue shoes, dont know why i choose that colour.. ???
yong jian and Guo wei were really angry, cause today they really didnt buy any clothes at all..

cause today,..
Me, yong jian and guo wei spent our precious time to accompany lester and kai xiang..
cause the way they wear theirs clothes damn old-fashioned.. so need to change.. :)
theirs outfit and appearance...
we reached orchard around 10+ and finished our shopping at 5..
really damn tired.. and some more we accompany 2 KIDS bought their clothes..
haha..

31 january - morning

2010-01-31T22:17:00.004+08:00

i wake up at 5.30 +..
luckily got Guo wei morning call me, if not.. so thx to him..
today is special, we have an event located at east coast park.
this event called Run For My Lunch, for charity,.. :)
so, i need to meet Guo wei around 6.15 at lake side mrt,
and later need to meet yong jian and Kai xiang at jurong east mrt..
then we also have to meet lester at aljunied mrt..
inside the mrt, they talk a lot,.
except me, kept day dreaming.. cause too tired..
we alight at bedok station. but kai xiang need to eat.
so we accompany him to the nearest hawker centre around the bus interchange there..
after that, we need to take either 196 or 197 bus to reach east coast..
unfortunately, when we reached there, felt of depression, except me..
cause they all start running already,. but i felt with joy.. cause no need to run..
i hate running!!. haha
then we cant do anything, like ask them to restart..
so we wait at the finishing line and cheer for them..
we saw james at there..
really disappointed, cause we wake up so early, and some more our home were from west side..
but reach here, just stand at there and not running.. :(
but im not sad at all, dont know WHY,, haha

23 july,. the day i borned..

2009-07-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

woo..
today is thurday..
well, im 18 this year..
porbably can buy alcohol, drugs and tobaccos,. haha..
well im just kidding..
and i really want to say thank to my friends, who plan my birthday party so instant durin our class...
for a moment my tear really brimming down,. but it didnt..
during the time before they celebrate with me, chian han ask my help to teach him EG1 work
and im teaching him as well..
then suddenly Ai Ting ask chian han for a moment, u think around 1 minutes like that..
so at first i thought that it was very common to ask a person..
so i neglect it, i didnt think too much..
then he come back to his seat and start to do his work..
mean while im teaching him, well as he is asking for my help..
suddenly black out, i thought that someone go to swithced off the light..
well that the suprising part starts..
eewin and ai ting brought a cake inside and start to sing happy birthday song..
first i got stunn because i never thought that they will come out with a plan like that..
and thank to them again,. i really like their plan and i felt really enjoy for this moment..
well u guys are the first friends who celebrate my birthday together..
during that time my friends never ever plan to celebrate with me..
just like i become an organizer, asked them to go out ate together..
well, not bad also.. ahha..
at that time i also enjoyed it...
well, thank again to my dearest friends,..
take care of yourselves guys.. ahha..
well that the end for my 18 year old celebration..
( after i go home, i got fever ) haiz..
whatn an unfortunate day..

22 july

2009-07-23T21:18:00.002+08:00

today is 22 july..
it was wenesday.. ( yesterday )
yesterday we have EECAD test..
not so difficult overall, so can manage it..
after finishing school, we plan to go to cathay ( orchard ) kbox to sing..
we just wanted to celebrate our friend birthday..
there are at least 8 peoples there,
me, ron, gavin, jin rong, raymond, eewin, aiting and jia wei..
well, ron and gavin very 'ciak lat' a,..
their went there to play dota, cause they couldnt sing..
so just around 5 o 6 people felt like to sing..
we started at 2 p.m and end at 5.30..
after that many people felt tired and someone plan to go home directly..
well i forgot he or she..
so we just directly went home and said goodbye to each other..

MY Grades..

2009-07-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

haiz, i really feel disappointed about my grades..
well, overall is not bad..
but i think i can get more and even more higher than my marks..

at first time, we got our ENPS exam paper first..
well, this module i think i really cannot score high mark,
because i lost 24 marks for nothing, ( not enough time )..
i admit that i was slow like slowpoke..
maybe i spent too much time on the previous questions..
the oscilloscope, walawe..
27 marks just for this 3 questions..
well, i really put a lot of effort on doing this question..
overall, i got 72/100..
not bad and not well done too..
SOME people got 98/100,..
this kind of mark sure exist mhe? haha
at least congrats to that person..

then next morning, i receive a mail..
well im not the first person to read my mail,.
my elder sister did it..
when i saw my grades,. i stun and once again i really feel disappointed..
because my EQ1 only score 78/100.. that not A, just a B ONLY..
haiz, poor me.. or maybe the teacher too strict on marking our paper..
and also my Engineering mechanic, i only score 71/100..
well i think my Eng Mech module really is the worst..
because some part, i don't even understand the question and meaning..
haiz, really my fault,. not understand the question meaning..
hope to improve more, hehe..

well, to some people who score really high mark,
don't get too cocky OK, cause one day u will fell from high place to hell.
and some people who failed this exams, neither feel sad nor cry..
cause we got second chances,.
grab it well and show to us the effort that you have put in to pass this module, or even score 90 and above..
well, my score also not good,..
so we, together do well on present and future..
let aim to the peak of mountain.. hehe

2009-07-04T23:25:00.003+08:00

haiz, damn tired a..
i felt like my body become numb, i cannot get up anymore..
well play too much sport and made me fall sick..

today morning 7 a.m i woke up,. ( saturday ).
Usually saturday i dont need to go to school,
but my friend told me to go, cause he plan to join badminton CCA.
( go there looking pretty girl only, not playing badminton ),. haha
well, i think it is not a bad idea also, so i accompany him and few of my friends..
after we reach there, pretty quick that we had become badminton member already..
just half member, cause we dont want to pay the member fees, which cost 10 dollars..
At first, we have to run. a warm up exercise..
we ran along the school areas, ( ngee ann poly )..
well, it really make me feel tired, cause i hate running..
i really not good at running.. haha
well, when we were in the middle of running, suddenly our mentors told us to stop,.
and do some stretching on the road..
push-up, sit-up, etc..
well, at that time the sun really shinning. ( around 40 degrees like that )
make me felt dizzy,.
after finishing stretching, we ran back to our room, badminton sport hall..
well, after we reached there, our mentors told us to rest first..
around 15 minutes like that he told us to form a group,.
and we will play some lobbing and rallying..
but it is really lucky a, cause our trainer is girl, so at least we felt a little happy.. haha..
after finishing lob and rally, we continue play badminton, usual play..
no match count..
well, i waste my time on this lousy badminton..
i really dont like the people at there,. ( no any pretty girls ). haha
so i didn plan to join the badminton CCA..

i reach home around 13.30..
i spent around 4 hours at school, go there and hit ball only.. haiz..
really waste my time..
after reaching home, i cannot take a break yet..
my mum order me to accompany my cousin to go out..
well i really cannot disobey my mum order..
so i quickly took my bath and went out with them..
we went to bugis, tiong bahru, and vivo..
haiz..
really make me felt tired..
i reach home around 21.30..
well, until now i really can REST IN PEACE. ( joke )
and i think that i really fall sick..
my degree is 37.4..
well, i think i will die soon, haiz.. ( foul mouth )

Believe me

2009-06-22T21:06:00.001+08:00

The haze beyond your eyes clouds my sight
Are there feelings lying at the bottom of your heart?

Even if the whole world was yours
Would that that bring you happiness?

Why do you look up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like
How you aren't good at putting things into words, so why not...

What happened in days long past?
In your eyes, as turn your gaze away from me

Do you know of such a warmth
One that can embrace you on those lonely nights by yourself?

Why are you so worked up on appearances?
Why, open up your heart
I know you've had a heavy cross to bear
But I've got the strength to accept you
So why not try believing in me

The free are awkward...
The free are anxious...

Why do you look up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like
How you aren't good at putting thing into words
So why not try believing in me

Believe me

2009-06-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

finishing exam and holiday too

2009-06-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

haiz, damn it..
these days exam really damn hard,.
although i spent most of my time studying, ( lie )
i still cannot get the highest mark..
haiz.. my bad bah..
btw, i think my Engineering mechanics really will get the lowest among all the exams,..
well because too many careless mistakes..
maybe it was my routine not to check the answer again..
haiz, what a lousy people like me..

well, after finishing the last papers, felt really happy...
because holiday is coming, haha..
during holidays, i plan to go back to my hometown to visit my oldfriends,.
and also go to my luxorius house, to enjoy my life there..
going out, have a good feast, play games, play arcades, singing, gambling, etc..
really go back to my hometown do a lot of thing..
well, i think ir eally enjoy myself bah, haha..

i think i will go back around one week,.
As i just have two weeks holiday ONLY, not enough.. haha
well, feel sad not to see my friend from poly,. haha.
i think they will feel sad too,. ( Hell never )
haiz, my bad really..

ok, best regard to my friends..
well, take care of ur own body,.
do not spend too much at home, do more exercise..
and do not work too late, later your body cannot take it..
haha..
do not play too much games too,.
do not usually go out date, later ur pocket money burst out how?
haha..
do not always go out, cause later u will get dark skin a, haha..
well, some people in camp take care urself too, donk get chase by were wolves ooo..
haha

ok,

coming back

2009-05-31T15:56:00.002+08:00

yo..
long time never update..
em..
maybe too busy at my new school
haha ( just lazy )

i am now studying at Ngee Ann Poly..
our school are really big..
and i haven yet explore all the areas, ahah
at there i have met some friends..( good friends ) hehe
btw, i think i was the only foreigner there,
all of my friend are Singaporeans..
haiz, can say i very lucky bah..
haha..
my class have 19 peoples..
4 girls and 15 boys.. (what a disappointed!!) haha
well, at least i can concentrate at my subjects..

at there, i also have to study English too..
not alot and every time.
just often writing and presentation..
well every Tuesday until Friday we have to bring calculator.. ( MUST )
cause everyday, all our main subject have to calculate alot of thing..
well, all the subject is similar as maths..

and another one subject is about programming..
it is call EECAD.. well i hate it the most
because i donk know how to do..
and it is also the teacher's fault..
he think he very good at this and he doesn want to teach us alot..
if we asked too many questions, he would deduct our mark ( lame sia )
well, overall i think i can get a pass mark.. ( what a relief )

today is 31 may, another one week common test is coming and holiday also,
( half sad half happy )
well, hope that i do well for my common test..
although at my class, i was the worst one..
hope to beat them one day.. ahha

OK, i will stop here..
next time i will update my blog if any event come up..

to melvern..

2009-02-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

wei..
thx for the gratitude for keeping the truth lie..
hehe..
sorry for making u like the real culprit..

em..
so how r u now?
making progress to ur NEW school?
or maybe u had given up ur NEW school and wanted to come to singapore to study?
hehe..
r u still in INDONESIA?
enjoy freedom is a natural of us.. ehhe

hope to see u soon..

survive

2009-02-22T14:06:00.002+08:00

thx to my pal..
name GUNAWAN..
he said that im a bastard..
and im sorry for not updating my blog..

maybe, too much time on freedom..
therefore, no time to write about my life..
haha..

by the way..
i had been accepted by Ngee Ann poly..
much happier than the past.. hehe

em..
how about ur NEW school, pal?
r their a lot of cute or beauty girl there?
hehe..
hope u enjoyed ur NEW school..
take care..

About the past.. something happened about me

2008-10-25T18:17:00.005+08:00

Time is flowing so fast..\
unbelievable that i had already 17 year old..

Gosh.
straight to the point then..
if i remembered correctly, it was about half year ago..
there was a girl i liked..
but sure that i did not dare to confess to her..
maybe i might be afraid that she would reject me directly..
so i kept it until the very last day...

then, a few month later,..
my friend found out about these matter..
i was surprised, added with confused too..
i feel confused as why my friend knew these matter..
sure that rumour spread like a Ferrari car,...
then i had an uneasy feeling about these..
when i wanted to talk to her, i had some odd feeling..
like someone was staring at me..
or they were teasing me..
Because of that, i did not dare to talk with her anymore..
maybe i was a shy guy plus coward too..
and the relation ship still keeping it until today..
but i had a bad news that she would be leaving soon..
after finishing the o'level exam..
maybe these was the end of our relation ship..

count for today..
not even more than 1 months that to be able to meet her..
Oh ya,..
when someone was starting the gossip,..
i had never talked with her before..
both of us was like a strangers when we met..
never thought of that thing would be happened..

but, at least it was good thing for me and her..
i denied that i was not good in relation ship with opposite gender..
hence, remaining single is the best way for me too..

( Guys do not think that i feel desperated about these matter.. )
( i was a strong guy too )
thank to my friends who were wanted to help me about these relation ship..
so do not waste your time and effort..
me and her will never be a pair too..

thank..
oh ya, the girl is
GLORIA

<>

2008-10-24T21:01:00.003+08:00

SOB..SOB..
Gosh.. I was shock..
i LOST my handphone this wenesday..
SOB.. SOB..
i was so scared that i lost my precious phone..
not even dare to tell to my family..
my phone was costly..
oh gosh, what a misfortune day happened on me..

shit..
i must find it right now..
guys, if u knew where my handpohone..
plzzzz.. tell to me..
and return to me too..

thx you..
God Bless You all for the o'level results..

SOB.. SOB..

the beginning of the story

2008-08-24T21:07:00.011+08:00

CHAPTER 1

well..
this world had become more and more mystical..
in your grandfather generation, the world was filled in wars..
all the pupils were holding their weapons and shields..
fighting had become a widespread for them..
They were being forced to fight in different religion,
by their ferocious leaders..
Animals also being forced to join for fighting..
well, in that past all the villager would not believe it..
but until the day, where one of the kingdom named Godwin,
who was the most evil kingdom among all in the world..
their strength were not be faked..
their level was the same as the god..
none of the kingdom could stand and fight them..
the world had concealed with evil spirits..
all the remaining in the world...had been vanished..
never ever in the world would be peaceful AGAIN...

the power?
well, the power that they used was called the RUNE..
in the world, there have 27 RUNE existed..
the titled called.. the beginning of the 27 true rune
while Godwin held the one of the rune called SUN RUNE..
the power was downright amazing..
nobody could image it, how powerful the power was..
when the power released, all the living thing and also the palace or kingdom,.
including the peoples and animals would be vanished by the power..

there is a time when the power really released it..
well,..
the power was not released in the kingdom of the GODWIN..
but instead in our kingdom..
yes, the SUN RUNE really released it..
when the SUN RUNE started to released its power, suddenly the two heroes come..
each of the also held a RUNE..
one called DAWN RUNE and another called TWILIGHT RUNE..
both of the runes also released their power..
luckily that, both runes could manage to stop the SUN RUNE..
and the GODWIN leader was also being killed by the RUNE..
as he could not even controlled the power yet..

Good..
the two heroes were FELIX and JEANE..
yes..
but unfortunate that,FELIX also being killed by the power..
when FELIX died, the power itself came out and fled to the sky,..
at that time FELIX and JEANE had a daughter..
named MIAKIS.. your mother..
when the DAWN RUNE escaped, so did the TWILIGHT RUNE..
both of the RUNE gone and just remained SUN RUNE..
where the GODWIN left..
AS the war would never had a stop before..
without any hesitant, JEANE wore the SUN RUNE..
and controlled the power of the RUNE..
she wished that all the world could become peace,
even though sacrificed her own life..
the god was cold-blooded..
JEANE really sacrificed her own life and brought the world become peace..
when MIAKIS saw with her own eyes, she vowed to herself that
she wanted to become the queen of the SOL-FALENA as she wanted to bring the peace to the world..
without any wars existed..
well the time past, the world really become more peaceful..
nobody even dared to speak a word of wars....

but the thing was MIAKIS did not want to have a partner..
means her boyfriend..
MIAKIS was very gorgeous but she did not fall in love with any guys he had met..
being alone was not a good thing..
so her aunt named SIALEEDS decides to solve the problem by held a competition..
who could become the champion in the competition so he would become the royal princess husband..
when the competition started, all the competitor felt happy and joined the games..
the competitors were about a thousand peoples..
nobody could image it how well-known your mother was..
until the semi-finals, GODWIN was included.. and three noble guys..
all the competitors support the GODWIN..
while for MIAKIS, she behaved very calm..
SIALEEDS afraid that GODWIN would become the queen husband..
the semi-finals finished and now the final round..
GODWIN was one of them and a noble guy..
well a noble guy was nice-looking too..
all the people were supported for the GODWIN..
none of the people supported the noble guy..
the match was quited nice as both of them was fighting with their best..
well..
when the final finished, everybody surprised and announced that the winner was a noble guy not GODWIN..
SIALLEDS felt happy, luckily that GODWIN did not win the games..
then the noble guy introduced himself to the queen..
his named was FRED..
he was a good leader and he also very strong..
nobody could beat him..
then both of them started to form a family and had you.. ( SILVER )..

so until here then..
next the story you were more clear than me..
let end until here..
good night SILVER..

LYM, protect the prince okay..
yes madam..

( LYM was a girl, she was hired to protect me by my father. she was very skillful and her ages was same as me..)
we were like a siblings whenever we went away for our missions..

national day..

2008-08-09T13:13:00.002+08:00

today is 9 august 2008..

that mean today is singapore national day..
hope all the singapore friends..
can celebrate their national day with great of joy..

and today..
all of us must watch the tv show..
about the celebration on singapore national day..
it must very enjoyable..

hehe..

olimpic day

2008-08-09T13:11:00.003+08:00

woo..
olympic started already..
wish all the team do their best..

singapore also do their best..
haha..

hope that singapore can get a lot of medaly..
hehe

scar.

2008-08-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

damn it..
the scar in my hand have not heal yet..
it was already one weeks time..
how come the scar have not healed yet?
shiiiiiittt....

it was at that time..
saturday night..
melvern and i were going to raymond house and together we were celebrating for him..
that day also was an unlucky day for me..
when we reached there, i just sit quietly pretend to ignore them..
as i did not want to involve any kind of misunderstanding..
but the thing that i wished to ignore, it really happened on me..
one girl.. no need to mention her name..
she behaved very wierd..
she also forced me to drink..
the drink was the mixture of coke and alcohol..

damn it..
i really did not want to drink..
but she took my handphone and blackmailed me..
that was unfair.. i hate it..
however, another thing happened again..

she wanted to throw my sandal to the pool..
as i quickly grabbed my sandals and we jostled each other...
if i didnot jostle with her, my sandal would be thrown by her..
i did not want to become the next victim..

she knew that she would never win me..
then she took her action..
she bite on my finger..
then i stunned..
she defenietly not give up..
and continue to bite..

i knew that it was hurting..
but i pretend..
i gave her a furious eyes..
without a second, she finally let go of my sandals and also her bite..

damn it.. that thing really made me angry..
and until now my scar have not healed yet..

i hate it.. i want to cry.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

exam..

2008-08-01T23:32:00.004+08:00

haiz..
prelim first is coming..

that mean the war is coming now..
quickly get your gun and shiel and wear some armour to help you blocked from the oppenent attack..
hehe..
wish all the people good luck..
do not give up until the end..

time and time wait for no man..
and so become a man and girl of human character..

did u find that u had heard that before?
haha,,

ok.. to all the people.. donk give up..
just do ur best in your exam..
keep it up.. all my friends..

exam..

2008-08-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

Raymond birthday

2008-07-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

today..
i went to raymond place..
with melvern suwondo..
haiz..

he wore proper shirt and long pants jins..
when i told him that he would be drown by they..
they prefer to the 4a people..
haha//

then melvern begged me for changing his clothes with my clothes..
but i disagreed and told him that it was okay..
nevertheless, he did not want to hear my advise..
and finally, i gave up..
let him to wear my clothes to go to raymond party..

after changing, then we decided to go to raymond place..
where his place just opposite of my place..
hehe.. just cross a road from my place..

at there we like a dummy person..
all the people there, not rcognize at all..
so we just sat there and view at right and left..

we didn eat a lot as we just finished our dinner from mc donals.
before went to raymond place..

at there we were like a doll..
as we were being bully by them ..
4a people.. haha.
but the way,,
thx to szeyah..
sometime u r too wierd,,
but today u r too kind to me and melvern..
thx to u again as gave us some food to eat..
if u didn give us than we would be starved.. hehe..

but the way,, this party was not so enjoy for me..
as not all the people that i knew..
just using both hand that could count the nimber of the people that i knew..
hehe..

what a wierd day that i had encountered.. hehe..

peace..

nice movie.. see this

2008-07-25T22:53:00.001+08:00

make sure u learn this..

haha. hope u enjoy this movie..

prelim..

2008-07-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

oral.. oral..
i think i can manage to pass my oral test..
but the way,, when i want to say in english language, i felt shy..
i felt nervous too..
haiz..

i wish that i can get a b grade..
"A" grade also can..
haiz..

ok..
i will do my best for tomorrow..
hehe

happy birthday song..

2008-07-19T22:21:00.003+08:00

thank you

2008-07-19T21:15:00.004+08:00

18 july 2008..

i never though that these thing woud happen right in front of my eyes..
yesterday, i was going out with my friends..
we went to bugis to buy some present for our senior birthday..
when we reached there, it was about 4.00 pm..

then we were shopping, shopping and shopping, then shopping again..
we spent 3 hours in bugis to look for the present..
moreover, our planned for today was watching BATMAN, the dark knight..
unfortunately, we could not find any seat for us..
all of the seat was occupied already..
Plaza singapore, Cathay, bugis also..
indeed that we really could not find any available seat..
all was being sold out..
damn it.. why donk we book the tickets first?
( endless time of mumbling )

there were 5 of us..
but unfortunate, one of us want to go back home first..
he said his guardian would not allow him to go back before 10 o'clock..
"what the hell?" i screamed/..
we kept begging to him, but he could not break his word..
then he went back by himself..
i could feel that his heart was filled with disappointment..

then we went to bugis..
we planned to go to marina square to play pool games..
in the middle way, i saw one of my cousin..
sitting there with her friend..
then i have a few minute time to chat with her..
she said after these, she would go back home..

so we said goodbye to each other..
and we went to the side road to hail a taxi..

when we reached there, it was already 10.00 pm.
then we booked a pool table and have a long match..
we played until 11.15..
then we decided to go back..
as we afraid that we might miss our train..

then suddenly two of my friends ( girl ) said want to buy something at seven-eleven..
then i and one of my friend waited them at the main door..
it took about 15 minutes to buy the CAKE>>
( what a wierd feeling about )

then we also have a long route to reach the mrt station.. ( city hall )..
finally, all of us was tired and decided to go back home..

however, suddenly suprised me..
in the middle of the mrt way..
one of my friend grabbed my hand and went to the platform.. ( clementi station )..
i didnot know what they want to do.. so did my friend..

then.. one of my friend open the cake and put up the candle..
finally, i realised it..
they wanted to celebrate my birthday with me..
in the early time...
so we sang a happy birthday song..

these was the very first time i received a small celebration from my first..
it was indeed small but it has a lot of meaning for me..
these day, i would not forget it..
the day i forgot was the day when i was in the hell or heaven..

there were three person..
there were 2 girls and the only boy..
thx for them..
i would remember it, the day they had celebrated with me..

and thank you to what you had planned to me..

love u my friends..
at that time, my tears really rolled down..
what a shamed.. boy was crying?.. wierd right..
but that was me..

peace.. -.o

to someone I love

2008-07-19T00:43:00.002+08:00

have u loved someone before?
or.. being love by somebody before?

i think most of the people have already experience before..
isn that love is a very extraordinary thing?
i must admit it..
love is like a love..
it was the most difficult to elaborate it..
even the most famous sciencetific had the difficulty to explain it..

to human, love is like a heaven..
love can bring someone happiness..
for example..
if u love somebody, u woold do anything for her..
like u could give her anything she want from u..
love also can be a sellfishness..
u will lose urself and listen to whatever she was ordering to u..

that why.. love is so wonderful to anybody...

to be honest..
there is someone in my mind now..
whenever i go, i always thinking about her..
when i close my eyes,i always see her face appeared in front of me..
indeed, everyday inschool time, we oftenly meet but rarely have a good chat..
to certain extent, talking with her really made me felt happy..
i wished time will stop at this moment..

however, im a shy guy..
i never tell her that i like her..
for me, love really made me sick..
without her, my life was a meaningless..

i wished someday, she would know my feeling toward her..
sometimes, love also depend to anyone who have fate or not..
be more realistic, if we really have fate, then we would be together..

love,love,love..
really made people confused..
but i dont mind..
as i knew that i love her too much..

guess plz, where am i?

2008-07-14T21:06:00.002+08:00

do u know where im now?

im also do not know..
the place i stayed was too dark,.
i even could not see any light passed through into this room..
no matter where i turned my direction,//
the place was covered with four walls..
all the wall were same colour..
i could not identify which way was right and left..

but luckily that, one of the edge had a small tiny bed..
there were no pillow and sheet..
at night, the place was so cold..
it made all my body become frozen..
my heart palpitated tremendously with fear and scared..
why am i scared for?
when at the night time, i could hear the wolves roared and i could hear them searching for their meal..
i kept imagine, will they come and eat me?
i could not imagine it..

perhaps the day im going to the hell was very close now..
i was scared, my hands were trembling non-stop..
and i kept thinking positive way..
am i now in my dream?
i punched directly at my face..
" shiiit.. it was hurted.."
how come? it was not a dream..
it was real..
but i could not recall anything..
and how come i have ended up in a peculiar place like this..

( sad mood )
tears trickeled down my face..
" it was salt, my tears"..
did somebody kidnap me? or did i become a hostage for any crime?
( i kept thinking the possiblelity.. )
nevertheless, i really could not recall anything that happened to me..

( kneeled down )
God.. please help me..
could you please help me out from here?
i donk want to stay in here..
i want to GET OUT from this place.. PLEAAASSEE!!!

if i had really commited any crime or if i had done anything terrible..
please forgive me this once.. ( sobbed )..

loneliness//

2008-07-14T20:52:00.003+08:00

i think i was a bluer person around my friend..

sometimes, i think i had a difficulty to communicate with them..
perhaps, im the one who did not how to communicate with my friend..
and that matter made me felt that im being alone and far far away from them..

im very grateful that some of my friend kept support me from my back..
furthermore, the way how they treat me was totally in such a polite manner..
i felt very joyful..

like today, hansi.. who sit beside me was absented..
today really made me felt alone..
i think all my friend dislike me..
sometime i think that i roared too much.. hehe..
( im not an animal )..

sorry my friend.. im too loneliness..
i knew that sometime i acted too vulgur to u..
sometime im oso did not use my brain to think and spilted out any harrass word.. hehe..

miss you

2008-07-04T18:32:00.002+08:00

the day when i saw u..
i think i really fall in love with u..

as i knew that the first thing that attract me was her beautiful eyes..
it was round and twinkling, like the star..

she had a long smooth hair..
and she had a kind-hearted to every body..
every time, when i saw her.. she always smile to her surrounding friends..

so i think that, this kind of attitude was totally attracted me..
but the way.. i could not stand for my self to talk to her..
i afraid that she would laugh at me..
as i did not know what we want to talk..

so i hope that she would talk to me first..

at least, she started to talk to me..
i found out tha she was really a care to anybody..
when i talked to her, her voice was too soft.. it was a melodius voice..
my heart was really touch by her..

at that time, i think that i really fall in love with her..

mean while, i was in secondary 3..
in these year.. it was my happiness day..
my teacher put me to sit beside her..
mean we were sitting together..

i felt very happy..
every day, when my head turned to left..
i could see her very near..
then every day, i always steal a chance to talk to her about her profile..
i think i could get some detail abpout her..
but, when i wanted to talk to her..
i just could not open my mouth..
i did not know why?
perhaps i felt shy..

i knew that my appearance was too ugly..
i was fat and dumn..
i knew where i stand.. so i knew i couldnot fall in love with her..

so..
i maintain until the very last day..
it was our graduation day..

our teachers had planned to go to the beach to celebrate the very last day..
i just sit on the beach..
i was afraid of water.. so i did not swim..

all my friend was swimming, playing and GAMBLING..
but i did not join them..
if i played with them, i afraid they would torment me..
if i Gambled then i would let down my parent..

so i just sit there..

but, something was suprise me..
she. the girl that i mention..
she was sitting beside me..
she asked me to swim too..
then i told her my reason..

she also replied me..
she said that she would imigrate to countyside to continue her study..
then she suddenly hug me..
and said far away to me..

so these was the last day i met her..
i hope that i could see her again..
as she was my first love..

i miss u..

tomorrow..

2008-07-02T20:02:00.004+08:00

so tomorrow is my chinese-oral..
but, i have not done ant preparation..
just viewing here and surfing..
haiz..
if i continued like this, maybe..
my chinese oral may be failed..
haha..
but, i donk mind..
i think chinese not so important to me..
it just like a far away subject..

now.. i just want to do some work..
it is about my school work..
like math..
i knew from myself that math is one of my best subject..
but.. how come my A-math was so horrible done..
i just couldnot get A1..
just can normally passed..
damn.. i hate it..

i think i must work hard from now on..
if i just said it, then i maybe a failure..
i must take an action..
not just said it..

perhaps, im really not good in study..
but what i care is my future..
furthermore, what i was studied now will be a big help in my future..
so, i must not hate study..
from now on, i just had to bear it..
until i get my work..

but still, must work hard from now..

love

2008-07-02T20:02:00.001+08:00

yesterday..

2008-06-21T10:12:00.002+08:00

today i woke up at 7.30..
i was tired and could not even stand up..
i was forced to accompany my cousin to play some sport games..
like playing basket ball, tennis and badminton..
it was downright tired,,

after finished playing, we had our breakfast..
and prepare ourself to go to journay.. haha..

first, we went to harbourfront.. to fetch my father..
there were 6 peoples of us.. my mother, both of my sister, my cousin, my second aunt and me..
when my father arrived, we were having our lunch..
about 2.30..

after that,, we went to bugis..
wooww.. people at there were uncountabled..
like, people mountain people sea.. hehe..

some place at bugis,i was unabled to escape..
we always go to bugis street..
i hate crowded place but it was fun..
at there, i could see many beautiful women and handsome boys..

in the middle ways, i saw ANDRIANO..
he was a singer in campus last two years..
when i saw him, i smiled with him and he smiled back..
Adriano was from my hometown..
and also he was my buddy.. hehe..

then at about 8.00.. we were going to have our dinner at LAU PA SAT..
my parent always like to go there and eat..
i think i might agree with them..
as the food were delight and delicious..

after finished eating, we headed to mrt and go back..
inside the mrt, my cousin and i were having some soul vs in psp..
we were laying BLEACH,,
it was very fun..
as mosy of the time, i always win.. hehe..

when we reached home.. it was 10.00//
as the door open,. i quickly rush to my room and take some cloth to have a bath..
as i finished, i started to open my laptop..
it was my habit..
as laptop was my best solution to cure my tiredness..

so i slept at around 12.00
and then,, good night..

night shade

2008-06-10T16:57:00.002+08:00

The events of that night and the lasting image of that time are when all of our destinies completely changed.

long time had passed.
it was rare that she was appeared inside my dream.
i had already forgotten her face..

when i was young, she and i were always together.
we come together like drops of water, like astral bodies, we oppose each other, like magnets, like the colours of skin.

every weekend or public holiday,.
we always go to the forest, where we would feel bravely to explore the devil forest.
as the rumour of our hometown..
however, in the middle of the way, we always encounter wild dog and boar..
luckily that, each of us grabbed a stick and a wooden..

unfortunate, we would never finish to explore the forest..
we always force to leave the forest by the townfolk as too many wild animal..

but time had passed..
i was transfered to neighbour country to continue my studies..
i wished i really want to see her again..

if i were the rain, could i connect with someone heart, as the rain can unite the enternally separated earth and sky?

we had built a strong bond

2008-06-09T00:12:00.004+08:00

(F) riend is the best companion in human life..
(R) ule like law may not be able to change our destiny..
(I) must stand for myself to change my fate..
(E) ndless route is the biggest mistake that had been done by human
(N) one of us know that friend is extremely special to us..
(D) ue to irresponsible behaviour, human lost the bond..

(S) o, we must change our destiny by our hands..
(H) eaven or hell, we will go there together..
(I) must cherish all my new best friend without losing them..
(P) rotect your friendship, protect ur friends..

extreme bored

2008-06-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

now is 11.00..
i still have not sleep yet..

my mind kept thinking something..
but i could not recall it.. damn

perhaps,. my brain kept digging..
i could hear a drill sound surrounded my ear..

shit..
i hate this freak voice..
i always keep hearing this peculiar pitch..
( perhaps somebody is screaming for help)
haha..

now..
i just stayed with my both loveable sister..
sometimes i felt that im such as a damn useless at them..

every thing, likes house hold was done by my both sister..
i just can sit and stand..
the worst was, i even neglect them..
what a man am i?

yeah,, happy day..

2008-06-02T15:40:00.001+08:00

Today, i just made a blog..
but i do not want too many people to know my id..
perhaps, i'm afraid that many people will see my blog..
which mean that my english are very SUCK..

haha..

today have ss and math home work..

as usual, math homework are a-lot..
i hate homework..
especially during holiday.. haiz..
i think all of us are the same..
hate homework during holiday.. haha.
u r agree with me right?